Pride vs. Conceit, Confidence vs. Arrogance

When does it come time to finally put your foot down? Why do I continue to let people put me down and belittle me?  The blatant ignorance of some people just makes my blood boil. Some people think I am a lowlife...but those people have no idea about the things I do in my life to just keep on going. I can honestly say that I have done pretty decent for myself, compared to some of the people in this world. I have never been arrested. I am not living on the streets. I am not prostituting myself or other people for money and drugs. I know that I may not have accomplished everything there is to accomplish in life, but I must say that I came out pretty damn decent. There are a lot of people in this world who are total fuck-ups. Yeah, I have had some problems in my life. I am still a good person and I am a better person for coming out those problems in one piece. There were many times I wanted to give up on my life. I am finally starting to realize that life is worth it and I need to stay here. It's taken me a while to come to that conclusion. It's been a slow, daunting process. I am still working on it; I am working on myself every day of my life. I have my good days and my bad days, I know we all do. I also know that I am worth something in this world, and it's going to take a lot more than people talking out of their ass to bring me down. People think I am a bitch, but the truth is, I can be your best friend or your worst enemy. It's up to you to choose the side you want to be on. Put me down for no reason? Chances are I won't want anything to do with you. Treat me with the respect I deserve? We'll be good. The self-absorbed nature of people today really makes me sick. There is a BIG difference between pride and conceit/self absorption. The people that I admire most in life are the ones that are humble about their accomplishments, not the ones who rub your face in them like it was a pile of shit. Once again, pride, not conceit. I don't appreciate people who think they are Mother Teresa. Some people need a slice of humble pie and to get off of their high horse and walk like the rest of us. There is confidence and then there is total arrogance. Learn the difference.

It's never set in stone

I think as humans we pride ourselves on routine. It's how we budget our time. Life usually depends on it. How often does something go awry or not according to plan? I think we deal with this every day and do not even realize. Something as little as oversleeping can change the course of your entire day. All of a sudden becoming sick can do the same thing. As hard as we try to maintain some sort of constant in our lives, this constant we seek is always being pushed aside. Is it because, in reality, we subconsciously crave spontaneity and something out of the ordinary? Do we stress out and get scared because we are not used to it, even though we crave it? Change in any aspect of life is definitely a trigger for the stress and anxiety that some people have. No one likes change, but somehow we end up bored with the same old routine. Most times, we depend on routines just to live a normal day-to-day existence... say you lose employment. This change could be detrimental to the routine that you may have. This can include bills, rent, mortgage, car payments, etc. That routine most likely depended on the hours and wages earned at work. What do you do when that suddenly changes? It's nearly impossible to go through this without some sort of uncertainty. Nothing is set in stone, and sometimes, I think we need to take the changes that are thrown towards us in stride. Today could be the hardest day of your life, but if you get through it, chances are you may be handsomely rewarded. You never know.